Cancer anxiety

Thinking I have an enlarged prostate (at 70),  I began taking 5MG Finasteride daily on Fri. 27 JUL 12. My daughter Maya now tells me that my 1st-wife Joan Budyk (her mother; 70)  has 4th-stage colon cancer, & is now in chemo in Cambridge MA where she lives.

Psycho-embryonic

Am I beginning to realize

my soul melds with womens'

in their health & suffering?

Am I profoundly empathetic?

Am I psycho-embryonic?

(28 JUL 12, Santa Clara CA)v3

July Vacations

Does taking early July vacations
account for people's not answering
e- & voicemails wherever they are?

Where are you as you read this?
What are you reading it on?
Why are you reading it @ all?

(09 JUL 12, Santa Clara CA)

Smiling @ Smiling

Why am I smiling @ the word smiling?
I hardly know, but I am. Something's

changing within me in this silence.  I
even need to speak to Reggie, & so I do. 

I even notice it now & even write about it.,
realizing I'm doing it in aching desperation.

(09 JUL 12, Santa Clara CA) v1

IN HUMAN SILENCE

As a teen, I imagined myself as a poet & proseur, but now, @ 70, being both on the web has become increasingly stark ...because I write here in human silence, unexpectedly shocked that it's not at all what I thought it would be. Readers may imagine writers as self-stimulating, self-satisfying solipsists, but I need to hear live human voices. Call me at (408) 247-1943  I may be here when you call; if not, leave me a voicemail & I'll call you back.   ~ Bill